open your eyes

I've had a lot of time to think about life. Whether it's the antibiotics, the sick day I had to take, the emotional week I've had.. I've been thinking.

this is all we have. I never really think about the future. I think about the immediate future, yes, but hardly about 5, 10, 20 years down this road. but this is all we have. We have these moments in our lives that affect us. we have the people in our lives that affect us. and we hardly take advantage of those things.
the choices we make in life affect us more than we allow ourselves to acknowledge. but this is all we have. we have one chance to make the most of this life. we don't get another after this, we can't go back and redo things. this is it.

I can't sit back anymore. I can't let people, things, experiences pass me by in hopes that it'll come again. I can't continue to have this lack of courage or lack of confidence. I'm awesome in my own right, and I'll survive any minor road bumps along the way.

I owe it to myself to take chances. I do it so half assed. I take a chance every now and then, and pass up others. I know that I'm not in the position to take some of these job offers I'm getting at this moment. I know I owe it to myself to make waves, take action, be brave and courageous all the time instead of when I'm sure I won't fail.

I had a quote on the cap of my tea today and it read, "the things we do for ourselves die with us, the things we do for others last forever." It's kind of true. We have this one chance (i keep going back to it, i know) to make this impact, make this life everything we can, and we do have the world in the palm of our hands. Anything is possible. It's true. It's not just some optimistic thing.

"Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere"