firstly, this isn't my photograph. it's from newsweek.

I'm not always one to get involved in politics, especially war politics. But I feel like this is important, and because Marta has opened my eyes about what's going on in the west bank between the israelis and the palestinians, and now the lebanese. It amazes me how the US government supports the Israelis through both of these problems. Countless civilians are being murdered in both cases.... and for what?

this is me.

better late than never, right?

the week of the tibetan monks stay in savannah. this is all from the closing ceremony of the sand mandala at the jepson center, and river street. After the ceremony at the jepson center, they walked with horns and drum and chants down to the river and let out a part of the mandala into the river (into the world).

I wanted to get better pictures, but it was so crowded that it was difficult to find a great spot for photos. I did what I could, and at least I have a photographic memory since my own is terrible.


I'm moving in less than 2 days. Friday around 3pm, I'll be making my drive with my life (minus my love) in my car down to jacksonville. I'm a mix of emotions... sad, hopeful, scared. I hate thinking about not being with colleen every day. She has been my life for 5 months now... almost six.
She is who I want to come home to, who I want to wake up next to every morning and fall asleep with every night. These next 6 months - year are going to be difficult. I'm prepared for that. I know I need this help, this time to ground my feet and get myself figured out. But I'm hoping I don't lose myself in this, that I don't let them manipulate me or convince me I'm now who I am. I am Jackson. I am trans, but that doesn't make me the person I am today. I am an artist, a computer nerd, a hopeless romantic, a girly boy wonder, a papa to my kitten noah, a boyfriend to my girlfriend, a partner in crime, and so much more.

shut your eyes and sing to me

i am a pyromaniac at heart, and the fourth of july is my favorite holiday for that reason. I love setting off fireworks. When I was little, I wanted to be a pyrotechnic... I wanted to take chemistry and major in pyrotechnics in college and be a professional fireworks person.

my mom and I played with sparklers, they got the best photos. we set off bottle rockets with the blow torch, and finally my favorite... mortars. They look like the big professional fireworks you see... loud booms into the air followed by a shower of colorful lights. I could watch fireworks for hours and be perfectly content. The chemistry and physics amaze me... I want to know the combination of metals and compounds that make the brilliant red or royal blue...

but this visit wasn't all fun and games. I had a big talk with all of my family members, and decided it was time to make the move. I will be moving to jacksonville in two weeks, for probably about a year or so... I'm not sure how long. maybe less who knows. I'm going to go to school at UNF, get my core classes (art history) out of the way, maybe take religion or something that inspires me, and figure myself out and get grounded. I'm struggling... drowning in financial issues up here right now, and this is a good answer. I'll spend time with my grandparents... they're getting old, especially my gramps. I'll knit with my granny, play hide and seek with the twins, get a good job, and get my life sorted out.

I think it will be good. and you're all invited to come visit, as I will be visiting savannah on a regular basis. colleen and i are still going strong, and we will be as long as we're still madly in love.

I haven't been posting photgraphy as of late... especially anything for art's sake... I apologize. I'm in a photographic funk, that I can't seem to get out of...